Chapter 10

chapter TEN - THE LOST CHILD

Isabelle's POV

I watched him awkwardly leave the room after giving me warnings of never trying to hurt myself again.

I smiled

But wait! Why did I kiss him that way? That was too fast, I went too far.

No, I didn't, he is my mate, the moon goddess gave me a second chance at life, at happiness.

He looks so handsome and smells so good too.

I smiled

I place my hand on my stomach and..

"Oh my god! My baby"

"Ma'am, you should rest now, your boyfriend will be back anytime from now."

I looked at the nurse and felt speechless but slowly nodded.

"Thank you" I said and got onto the bed.

I watched the nurse apply the drip back on my hand, and checked on the bandages on me.

"I will give you some drugs that will ease the pain and help you sleep" she said

"Ease my pain?"

"Yes" she answered.

The pain I presently feel is the one in my heart, I ended up killing my baby, I am a murderer!

I felt tears build up in my eyes, as I continued to watch her.

"You need to eat, and I am so sorry for your loss"

"Thank you" I croaked as I tried to swallow the big lump in my chest.

She smiled at me, turned and left the room.

"My baby" I whispered while holding my belly.

The tears finally streamed down my cheeks and I broke down in endless tears.

The last time I cried this bad was when my pack got attacked and I lost my parents as they abandoned me to live with my aunty from a very little age.

And when I was first touched by a man who wasn't my mate.

But this feels worse than the two experiences put together.

I feel empty and shattered, like I should have no reason to live for committing the worst crime on earth; Murder!

Do I regret leaving Avid Mars pack, to be here?

But Klinn, he can't be a mistake right.

His blue eyes and beautiful face.

Vivion did this to me, he rejected me, he hurt me.

I had no other choice but to leave.

And definitely not back to my aunt's place, she was going to curse me for the rest of her life.

I had to go somewhere far, and start anew.

Klinn found me, and saved me.

Though maybe he shouldn't have as I regret just surviving alone.

My baby is gone.

I felt my chest contract in pain, I am an awful mother. I weep again and my breath, stressed.

I should probably try to end my life again, I don't deserve to live.

"Klinn" I whisper his name.

He is my second chance, maybe this is for the best.

I feel the drugs taking it's effect, as I suddenly feel very sleepy.

I lay my head on the pillow and feel another stray tear across my nose and down to my temples.

I hold my stomach tight and whisper my mate's name again before submitting to the dark calmness.

I wake up with a slight pain around my stomach, I hold it tightly and groan in pain as I seat up.

I hear whispers outside the door and I use my heightened senses to listen

'Yes, and tell him to be fast' were the words I heard before the door opened.

I could tell he was the one at the door by just listening to his heartbeat.

I smiled through the mild pain I felt.

He was still here, he stayed!

"You're awake!?" were his first words, he was here before now, he watched me sleep?

"Yes" I smiled

I watched him quickly drag the seat closer and sat beside me.

"How do you feel, any pain?"

He asked with so much concern. I could tell that just by his heartbeat, he was eager.

"Slight, but I will be fine" I smiled again

He watched me for a while and I felt nervous, I had to bring up something.

"I am sorry I kissed you like that, I was just carried away by my emotions" I apologized

"Why are you apologizing, it was nice" and he smiled, for the first time I genuinely see him smile. And he liked the kiss

"Just give me a heads up first next time" he said and I couldn't help but laugh.

"What's your name again?" he asked

That's strange, his wolf was meant to tell him, right?

"Isabelle" I responded, not wanting to create anymore awkwardness.

I heard him whisper my name right back and my heart jumped.

"Isabelle, I have so many questions of 'hows' and 'whys' but I will save them for later, okay? You need rest. And food is on its way.

I couldn't ask because you were asleep, but what do you like to eat? Hope you don't mind though, I ordered anything" He said and my face lit up like a thousand bulbs.

"Anything sounds great!" I said.

He slowly stretched his hand towards my face, but he stopped mid way and retreats his hands back.

'no no no no' I said within me

"You've been crying again, haven't you?" He asked, but I couldn't say anything.

"I am so sorry for your loss Isabelle. But I don't understand, you are a werewolf, a female yes, but you can out run every single car in this city, why didn't you save yourself?"

My eyes grew in shock, he knew I was a wolf?

"You knew? How did you know I was a werewolf?"

"I saw your beautiful eyes" he responded with a smile.

"I didn't think you noticed" I said to him

"I didn't know from the very beginning till I saw you leave"

"How did you find me?" I asked

"I followed my instincts"

I held my head low and smiled sadly

"I couldn't save myself cause I didn't want to, I meant for it to happen.

I waited and threw myself in front of the bus" I said with a tear down my cheeks, followed by another.

"But why? I am so sorry, I promised no questions till you are better.

I don't want you leaving my watch or hurting yourself as you will hurt me also. Understood?"

I nodded and sobbed, I didn't want to be crying now but I couldn't help it.

"it's okay, it's past now"

He said as he held me gently in his arms.