Chapter 6

chapter SIX - REGRET

Vivion's POV

I knew it was her birthday, as a matter of fact, I knew days before but I felt she deserved nothing from me. It might have been a long time, but the pain of knowing she was once a whore and danced for men still lingered in my heart.

She was meant to be mine, mine alone!

I had looked forward to the day I see her, longed for the comfort of her touch, knowing she would be mine. But not even the moon goddess could explain my feelings when I found out she enticed other men, impure, touched by someone else, someone I didn't even know so I could bask in the joy of strangling him with my bare hands.

All my life, I thought my mate would be mine, as my father took everything I ever wanted. Growing up with the cruelness of never having something you call yours.

'He wouldn't take my mate' I could bet on that. But no, she was already taken by someone else.

The thoughts of it makes me sink my claws into my own flesh, she disgust me most times. I should hate her, but I can't, she's my mate. I try to rough handle her under the sheets, she deserves it but it hurts me too, so I stop.

But what better way to make her feel the pain I feel than lay with another, waiting to get caught?

I, of course heard her footsteps, smelt her perfume and that sweet scent a mate should have, her heels hitting against the floor while her heart beating faster as she neared the door. I must confess, I did feel guilty when she walked in through that door and called my name, seeing the pain in her eyes made it feel worse.

Easily sliding out of the woman underneath me and watch her proudly exit the room, I walked up to my mate who couldn't even look me in the eye!

I tried wiping her tears for it was painful to look at but she immediately stepped back.

This was what I wanted I believe, to see pain across her face but she suddenly got the boldness to talk back at me instead of crying and begging me to stop.

I turned slowly, uttering the words of rejection, this I believed would hurt her more.

But my satisfaction was short lived when she accepted my rejection so easily, I was shocked and pain. Was I perhaps wrong to think she would fall on her knees and beg me to reverse it?

My doubts were clear when I watched her turn around and slammed the door behind her. By the next morning, she was gone! What have I done?

But no, I am an Alpha and will never submit to anyone, and definitely not a woman, she brought this upon herself by sleeping with those idiots, knowing fully well she would one day belong to someone and of all persons, me!

It's been a month now since she left, maybe I went too far, I shouldn't have rejected her that way, maybe I shouldn't have let her leave.

I clamor on my thoughts as I lay in bed, I should leave here, go somewhere where there's life.

I sit up and walk into the shower and in no time I step out, I get dressed and head to my garage where my cars are parked.

"Where would you like to go sir?" asked my driver as he bowed in my presence

"Hand me the keys, I will be driving myself" I said to him

"But sir"

"Keys now!" I said, loosing my patience.

I watched him as he fumbled with the keys out of his pocket before gently handling them to me.

I grabbed it from his hand and proceeded to the driver's seat.

Suddenly I hear footsteps and it didn't take long for me to realize who they belonged to, my guards.

"Sir, we"

"I will be going alone today" I nonchalantly said as I closed the door.

My Beta, John, knocked on the glass widow. I sighed and lowered the glass down

"Sir, please let us follow you wherever you are heading." he said to me.

"Are you trying to say I can't protect myself in time of need?"

"No sir, that's not what I meant, I only mea"

"I am your Alpha John, you should be scared at what I can do, not what can happen to me. Move out of my way, or I run you all over"

"My apologies sir"

He said and quickly moved aside.

I rolled up the widow and drove off.

I drive into the road with no thoughts or plans of where I want to go, but I knew I definitely needed to leave that house.

Isabelle, I never knew what she actually meant in my life.

I drive by a popular spot of mine, and I waste no time in turning the car around recklessly and parked in front of the building.

I alight the vehicle and toss the keys to a valet

"Good evening sir, how would you like"

He started, but I didn't wait for him to finish as I walked past him.

I walk into the bar and stare at the surroundings.

I move towards the bar and take a seat.

"Good evening sir, what would you like to be served?"

Asked the bartender

"Just give me the usual, make it stronger, I seem to be getting sober quicker than expected"

"Of course sir"

"Hand me the keys" I said to him

"Yes sir"

I watched him step in and out of a room and handed me a customized looking key, the keys to my VIP guest room.

"Bring the drinks to my room and see if you can add a dessert to it, she must be good looking to get me in the mood."

"Yes sir!"

I turned around and walked into the elevator and take myself to the last floor, getting to the door and only room on this floor, I place the key into it's hole and twist the knob.

I have never felt so miserable as I do feel right now.

I toss the key to the left and toss my jacket to the right.

I take out my phone and dial my closest friend's line, Richard.

"Vivion, how are you doing? You actually called, what's the occasion?"

I hear his sarcastic voice over the phone, never has he been serious in his life.

"She's not back Richie, it's been 4 weeks"

"Who!?"

"Who else? My mate"

I throw myself on the bed and hold my hair.

"Oh, ex mate you mean"

"Dont make things more complicated, I called cause I am currently a mess and drinks do nothing anymore, I fuck a lady and all I see is her face, I was told I call her name in my sleep, I am losing my mind man!"

"Now you regret it!? You rejected her Vivion, and you knew she had your baby!" I heard him say.